dukey downer

i have a bad attitude today. it's the emotional equivalent of carrying a backpack full of my heaviest textbooks around all day. i feel 2 inches shorter than usual as if even gravity is in on the joke.

purge: got in a fight with my parents. huge headache with the insurance companies about the wreck i got in on saturday (NOT my fault, but she's not admitting it's hers). money worries. feeling fat. messy house that will never sell. our car inexplicably smells like cigarettes. havent been to the dentist in a good 2.5 years. BOTH of our cats ran away and/or got kidnapped for vivisection. getting treated like an idiot at work. bad sales at publix this week. ripped a hole in my jeans crotch. i let my kids watch too much TV. there was a cicada in our house yesterday morning (soul violation). our nice camera is broken again. i had mcdonalds for dinner last night. the letter T is broken on our laptop and it makes me insane. and then a few private pity parties that are too shameful for even me to go public with.

now that that's out, let's replace it with some awesome. take out the textbooks and put helium balloons in that soul-satchel of mine. i'll be up, up and away like webster in no time.

my kids are hilarious, cute, well behaved and healthy. my favorite human is my husband. he is caring, respectful, responsible, hardworking and hot. i've run 8 out of the last 10 days. jesus. 5 of my friends had perfect little babies last week. my fantasy football draft is tonight. i am making this for dinner (tortilla chips instead of avocados). i got a postcard from my bestie living in germany and was reminded of her precious handwriting that looks like a 7 year old boy's. jesse got 2 new supporters last night. layla took her first half-step. two of my out-of-country best friends just moved back to america. i have the entire harry potter series on audiobook and love listening as i run. there is butternut squash, watermelon and asparagus in my fridge. my bff from the internet is my electronic penpal times a frillion and is inbox sunshine. jesus. my parents and inlaws have been married a combined 69 (haha) years this fall. i dont have a single physical ailment to complain about. avotacos for lunch. jesus. i have one free afternoon nap that jesse gave me (in exchange for other favors) that i havent cashed in yet.

feeling better already.